The lightning looks good, must be Grace.

shazaaaaam




from
magic spells
to
toilet smells

--------------------


I never knew this would have to come
The real realization of reality has finally awakened my dead soul
killed the king in my mind
and astonished me with grace I always disregarded

----

The fight is still not over
I felt ashamed
I have never fought the way I should
nor the way I could

That tar pit
That quicksand
That madness
all
gobbled my feet and my bones
crushed my head
drained my heart
swallowed me whole


but i still have my soul intact
-----



The greatest lessons were taught by experience
-----------

I thought i was a goner
but
 I didn't die

-----

It took me a hard fall to get to myself


and
that hard fall was the same fall i had long ago
the epic fall i had on the same
season


for the same


reason




but
this time only lighter

because i know how to fall correctly.
---

I fell

I chuckled
I cried
I ceased
I closed my eyes
I came to my senses

I prayed

" Must be tiring huh?"
" Yep, guess i wasn't that smart"
"well you are smart, but not wise"
"..."
" you should not waste what i gave you the first summer we met"
" I'm vulnerable to my emotions"
"I'll guard your heart"
"what if  I fail you again"
"I ll always love you."
"im so sorry"
"Just be HONEST this time, Ill always forgive you if you come with a clean heart"

------

Open the eyes of my heart, Lord
I want to see you.

fast blog (straight run, from a straight sun) approx 3 min

Dark and ignorant

facets of disturbance and death







Leave the leaves alone

coz the willow is bad  as the night

put
flame upon it

-------



sometimes the best weapon is in your mind

and sometimes its better not to show it.


and kill from afar



a sh*t from behind (shot)




-------------------

return to the abyss
where melodies sang

but i think im too late for the boat

because it already sank

in the bloody mind of an iceberg

part shown, part hidden


like any other geniuses

that devoured the whole earth




-----

Who are the patriots?

The best feeling

Imagine yourself


as a young child


In the midst of darkness


innocent
and
ignorant


a blank soul


unworthy.
and
worthless


hopeless.



no roads to see


no windows to peek


no doors to open


no walls to paint



no one to hear
no one to tell


nobody else understands
nobody else would know


everything else was so low






but then the glorious Sun appears


high above the heavens
soaring against the clouds

fends away darkness


bringing you



                         life      hope
                    future      light
      guidance                          protection
                 wisdom       power
                   grace        mercy
             goodness        everything else




and above all


...Love






------


The best feeling for me is remembering 
how He cares
how He teaches 
how He rebukes
how He gave everything


How He loves is so...

Tell em' its pretty ugly ( series )

What's wrong with the world momma?

-Where is the love?

Frankly I don't know what, But I think I know where.

Two questions visited my vast world of imagination

One of which is primarily deducted from our egocentric world,

the latter from listening too much pop music and rap 

( oh my I'm a horrible person, I'm sorry for listening too much of those things... LOLOLOLOL )

well anyways, as a constant traveler

( not that i love traveling, well in fact i detest traveling or moving around..., I am just prompted to travel )

there are things i'd like to discuss...

the things that I

I observe

even if i walk a zeta-million faster than an average walker ( yes, i walk fast)

I deduct

 certain principles of our dear world that is primarily authored by humans

as the society calls them as  "culture"

I reason out

Why humans  act that way, or that way or that way ^ nth time.  

*Disclaimer*

Although biased, I am certain that this is a BLOGSITE. A virtually accessible palace of our deemed hope and desires, our OWN free-doom and freedom.

I will be, from here on will choose various social dramas  and try to decipher deliberately each one of them. I'm no social scientist nor do i have any expertise on these things, but I am a writer and i have the right to write anything (even doodle) on any blank piece of paper ( or cyber paper).

Whats a crush to do?

...when you can't get through?

Medically speaking you're so adorable.

and sometimes i think you're not that lovable

coz you're sad with a disenchanting song on your ears...

and sometimes, you're just trying to hide your tears

She's a lady in her world's distress.

But looks wonderful in her dress.

She wears black frame eyeglasses, without a dent

I hope that someday that i'll be Clark Kent

But i guess I'm no superman...

CHE! hahahahah!

okay break from all seriousness! :D yay!

happy day to everybody!

100% happiness :D

Implicit subexits

In a world where stress is your day to day coffee

and physical limitation is the greatest worry

The barriers of relaxation stood up high

and all you can do is a callous sigh

Stress, the main article of the human life newspaper

"Where everybody grows old "

must be the headline

But why are we stressed?

over working? over worrying? over absorbing? over over major major?

We, humans are living creatures with scarce energy, with unlimited goals and ambitions.

We have

muscles that ache

skins that shed

eyes that blur

and ears that deafen.

Our limited physical person

stretched out

beyond every unlimited notion

But it's great life isn't that much

that aggressive.

oh really?

---

Yes It's true,

the actual scene is rather quite different than most of us think

"We are the ones promulgating our own stress"

Stress is actually defined as

the failure of an organism to respond appropriately to emotional and physical threats, whether actual or imagined.

It is our failure to comply with the throws and blows of our own surroundings.

Our own misunderstanding of what is really happening around us.

Our classic myopia or nearsightedness in what God's will and what He has planned for us

Everything happens for a reason, and I bet its for the ultimate good...

---

"So don't worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will take care of itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own...."

-Matthew 6:34

Remember this, Jeremiah spoke this with complete confidence and angst.

He already has plans to prosper you, and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. (Jer. 29:11)

The things happening to you ( good or bad)

Just thank our master planner for that

They might just don't mean a good thing to you

BUT They come in handy when the time comes

They Teach LESSONS IN LIFE

So just don't quit and feel tired! Life is a rollercoaster :))

What goes up must go down, and what goes down must come up.

It makes Life more interesting and more self evident of GRACE and MERCY

It makes Life a whole LESSON about

LOVE

HIS PERFECT LOVE

---

Stress is undeniably a plague

but moreover, just have keen FAITH

and understanding

its the perfect cure for stress.

fiery faery tales of fainting fools about fearing fails and flying flails.

"People who play computer games frequently are dumb"



such a hard statement
and a high disappointment


"Programmers and people who are good at computers are low profile jobs..."


Tell that to Bill Gates and He'll just chuckle,
pointing to hundreds of His cars and buckle



We'll i don't JUST PLAY when I'm infront of the computer
I just friggin hate when people subconsciously label me like that

I'm no 12 year old to be wasting my time on games and stuff

I HAVE AMBITIONS


---


On another face of it
The virtual systems
resides as my output
my stress output


hard to admit it
it's my scapegoat

My own way of relapse
My recreation

My Desires fit in to 17' inch screen

can't they just understand that even a 17 y'o
kid can have some other time to do other things than
reading piles of books that aren't really necessary for life?

---
but nontheless

Studying is not ambiguous with memorizing
nor ever synonymous with just mere info intake

it takes Application

"the mere reason why I don't take notes, read too much books(but i still read)
but take too much time
pondering
and
reflecting
after
listening
and
absorbing
words and intuitions
ideas and concepts
CREATIVE SOURCES
...
from professors who are in a hurry to catch classes or to gamble
their lives smoking and driving too fast..."
---

Life for me is a reflection of creation
God creates with man
With US

He creates our own stories
He directs our paths ( Psalm 23)
He is our shepherd

But it's not an excuse not to study really.
But rather a complete inspiration to do so...
and other things held constant (ceteris paribus)
like computer and recreation(It's our need to do so)

Balance is the KEY to Success(input)

God holds the doorknob to it (response)


---
ciao, getting too preachy lol :))

faent

"happiness isn't found on a bottle."

people get drunk

I don't know the exact good reasons why

or is there any real good reason?

---

They pour a-hundred year old whiskey on a shot glass

mouth opened out of a numb throat

swallows it in a second

hands grabbing for a chaser

eyes near bloody red

mind in the pitch black void

they vomit their hearts out

they vomit their hearts out---

Drunk people like to tell secrets.

Secrets they can't say when they are conscious

Their darkest emotions

Their deepest thoughts

They must've think being drunk with your friends

is the easy medium for sharing, hiding, connecting,

relating, grieving, expressing,

the outlet of everything you don't want

or even the transit for happiness

nonetheless

It's still the same thing

The same liquid burning your liver

The same substance eating your mind for hours

The same element eating precious time and energy

The same waste you entangle yourself with

may it be

Brandy or Beer

Vodka or champagne

For the rich, or for the poor

It doesn't matter

You may be stressed, but I am too?

You may have problems, but all of us have too?

---

Can't take the kid from the fight
take the fight from the kid

A great line from Panic! at the Disco's "Camisado"

To put it in plain English

the 'kid' represents the people involved, may it be the addicts or drunkards

and the 'fight' might be drugs or alcohol..

You can't stop people getting addicted.

But all you can do is dispose the 'materials' of addiction

---

Do not get drunk on wine, which leads to debauchery. Instead, be filled with the Spirit.

-Ephesians 5:18

A clear excerpt from the bible.

It leads to Debauchery

or in other words,

waste

nuff said.

---

In this wonderful universe, we could argue all day long about how to handle things like stress and alike...

some may say "we'll just get drunk for fun "

others would say "lets drink for i have a problem"

But ill deliberately tell everyone who thinks like this

God created a great world,

He designed it to be optimized by mankind

Let Him dictate how to handle things

And i'am sure He has the BEST ways...

rather than being drunk...

Revive the passion...

"Revive the passion of writing thoughts in narrow paragraphs, but embraced with your widest thoughts dug out of the deepest canals of your mind, soul and heart..."

I'am bored, really.

But nobody can stop thinking

nobody can reduce brainstorming

nobody can limit your ideas

nobody can

It's our freedom

It's our identity to think

It's our nature to express

It's who we are

Our thoughts is our persona

We were all born to think

and

Creativity is a gift of God.